As we all know the devil of MS is fatigue....mental and physical it can weigh you down like a vest full of lead. If a friend or family member comes to visit...they need look no farther than my living room to determine my level of fatigue.If I'm having some good days... things are nice and straight with maybe a good vacuum and dusting. But on days when I'm "1 day out from the flu" as I call it, you may find coats draped on the chairs dishes dotting the tables and dust. Early on my main task was to make sure everything was straight no matter the circumstances, my girls would find themselves with a grumpy lifeless mother who would be in bed "resting" at 7 pm. Now, I try to work more on my attitude and less on the housework. Don't get me wrong I like a nice clean house and still will hit the ground running when I'm up to it...but when I'm not up to it, I would rather save my energy for people not dust. I speak big but it's still a work in progress trying to relax when my kids bring someone over and not jump up and start straightening. My daughter pointed out that when I act uncomfortable about my house around her friends, they feel uncomfortable. I realized what a true statement that was when I thought a few classes I had in school where the person giving a talk was so uncomfortable it made me uncomfortable. So, my order to myself....is to chill out, relax and enjoy the people around me to the best of my ability. No more using up all my energy on cleaning....now I'm going to practice using more of that energy on the ones I love! Anyone else out there struggle with cleaning, energy and accepting a less than neat house?
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